I still keep these songs in my music library because I appreciate the gained perspective from the tied experiences.
"You know how you can hear a song okay with some let me back up some people relate more to music than others, right? so I I'm constantly sorry. I'm a buddy sore from the gym. I Listen to all kinds of music And it's based on the mood and it's basically a soundtrack to my life So I can hear songs and it's funny I can relate to them and remember like times where they have related to me specifically With life circumstances, but then I can still appreciate the song for itself and Like listening to it at a different time But there's like two of them two of them that are highly specific That okay at one point in time, huh? This is when I was in Oregon and it didn't have anything to do with Oregon It just happened to be where I was at Where like I had finally gotten to where I wanted to be I had paid off debt My credit score was all like it was getting to 800. It was actually got a hundred and whenever all this happened And I was on I was on my own like I had my teenager at the time with me, but I had moved away from everybody and I found peace and fulfillment in the forest in the Pacific Northwest in the volcanoes away from everybody in the temperate rainforest And it was just so amazingly quiet in the best way And then my company abruptly shut down with the Silicon Valley Bank crash and then the West Coast job market crash and I just things weren't getting better and I Everything that I had worked so fucking hard for just crumbled and I Hit autistic shut down and I'll burn out I had been in that for years I didn't even know until I had moved there That's when I found out that I was autistic and I'd found out like a year before that or two that I was ADHD anyway, um So in pure autistic shut down like I was like flirting with you know Not being around anymore, but I never like craved that I was just completely overwhelmed and there were songs that hit me that I'll put them in here But they came out around that time and like I can't listen to them and not be taken back to that place like I don't feel it doesn't put me back in a shutdown, but it's such a like Sobering reminder of that feeling that I will never let myself get to again. So I Don't listen to outsiders and perspectives And I mean I don't take them to heart because like I had a fight for my own fucking life and Worth and like I can't ever follow anybody else's storyline of how they see me because I had to claw my way out of the fucking dirt"
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I still keep these songs in my music library because I appreciate the gained perspective from the tied experiences.
