"to me like the idea of someone just knocking on your door and announced was so foreign to me that and I have such bad nerves that it was like literally eliciting like imagine like you know it's like the the woman screaming and cycle in the shower like that was me every time someone knocked on my door like blood curdling scream and farmers being all friendly and stuff you know yeah okay do you mind if i take the hay out of your backyard and do you like sausages and bacon yes you know yes yes yes you know and then i mean i had guys like inviting me to come and like um like go and and get like wood for the for the for the winter with them like oh i don't even know what to call it lumber lumbering wood for the winter you got it right yeah so because i had a wood stove in that place you know because sometimes i hit myself for not staying in that place because"